I don't know how much of it is because I am busy, but I just don't have very much to say anymore.
My "struggle" is more and more a thing of the past.
How long has it been now?
About 4 months.
But it feels longer. I hardly remember what it is like to masturbate to a fantasy of having sex with a man.
Ugh. Gross just to even mention the idea. (No offense to non-straight folks, it's just how I feel.)
Even my desire to connect with other men with SSA is diminishing.
I don't know what to make of this. Should I stop writing here completely? As for posts on manhood or fatherhood, I find myself not really interested in blogging about it. I prefer to just live it.